2003-07-12 - 2:24 p.m.
MEIFANG
hi there,its been some 5 years,yes?not that i know u well before.i remembered that i only knew u cos u were a schoolmate of my sister.and that i would see u once in awhile at my house.it must have been at least 7 years ago,eh?
let me try to tell u wat i remember of that nite.
as usual,i was working in the bar,nothing much.same 5hit,different days.somewhere around midnite,u came in and said hi.i was a little surprise to see u.i dun remember ever seeing u in the pub.so i guess my sis must have told u that i worked there.i cant remember whether it cross my mind why would u be there at such a late hour,knowing that u were married and all!!ya,being married was a big thing at that age so i guess my sister did tell me that u were.i was all of 21 and u must have been 17 or so....so it WAS a big deal!but i think i did hear my sister mention that ur husband did not treat u right.that u guys were forever fighting.(it shuda ring a bell then,but i was thick)
i think u were with 2 other gals.i din notice them much just as i din actually pay much attention to u.anyhows i give u guys ur drinks and u were sitting outside by the river,with ur 2 friends.i must admit that i did realise that u have grown into a pretty lady.
as the nite wore on...i think i did went out to u guys once,made some small talk and then forgot about u guys thru that nite.....i think i did look outside to see if u guys were still around during closing.u guys were gone.might as well....
it was 2-3 days later when i heard the news from my sister.then u jumped and ended ur life.ON THAT MORNING that i saw u.it was a few hours after i served u in fact.they found u sprawled out unceremoniously at the foot of ur flat the same morning.i m not too sure whether u were still in the same pretty black dress that u were in earlier,or that u still wore the same sweet sweet smile on ur face!they said u jumped,i really din know then,i was trying to find a slight hint of sadness or resent or weariness or anything that could have told me that u wanted to go.i found none,if they were there i didn't see it.but now i know better.
just wanna tell u that it affected me alot then,it still does now.even tho' i didn't know u that well.even tho' i haven said more than 100 sentences to u.i guess one of the main reasons why it affected me so was becos of the few hours in between...i did wonder that if we had supper together,would u have told me wats inside u?would u be here today?.....i do keep wondering.....
2003-07-14 - 7:06 p.m.
rose/doris
hi,have u been alrite?2 years now aint it?i dun exactly know the reason u wanted out.there was too many questions unanswered.too much walls u built around yourself.some said it was daniel,some claims it was ur family,some others said it was work...i really dunno,nor do i wish to know.i only know u made ur decision,and were brave enuff to see it thru.ya,talking about daniel,he's doing fine the last i heard.hazel,i wont know,tho' the 4 of us has been thru good times and bad,i haven seen her in the longest of time.i know u and daniel felt bad about wat happened between me and her but it really wasnt anything to do with u guys.and look at me now,i m doing good.so forgive urself,as i have never blamed u guys,not once!
u were always the tough gal,the easy-going one,so ur departure did come as a shock.we always know u as the strong one.there was never anything that could bother u too much.but i guess u must have ur reasons.very good reasons.can't help but think of the old times that were to be had by all.....oh ya,the apartment,if u can call it an apartment...haha,has been torn down,think they gonna build better buildings there....lol.ya,it was a haven for so many of us....think carol and the rest upstairs jinxed it,eh???lol. the nite that i last saw u.i was there alone,din see hazel,but of cos daniel was there,all swollen eyes and all...oh ya,bobos was there too.u lie there so serene.so free from this world..... til i see u again
JOEI
Suppppp,brudder!!!keke...u were always the firecracker, the happy one in the crowd, live life easy, no fights,not even arguements....ya, and the brother of my then boss....never ever used his position to put up a shield around yourself.
when i 1st saw u, i thot u were quiet,dun drink much,not trouble-making and not grooving with the rest. i thot u will not make it with us, but u did, u became fast friends with most of us, tho u did not really like hanging out with your own brother, my boss.
so i thot u cool, we used to drink,i did, til dawn.bitching and singing til day breaks....learnt never to back down even when we were grossly outnumbered,learnt never to leave a fallen comrade behind even when ourselves were going down. i think that is all our fault now.
when they told me u got offed, i thot they were joking.....and smacked their heads for joking about such stuff...by then, your brother had disappeared, the whole place was a slum.....but we kept hanging on......
til i heard the whole story.....
that u got offed by your gf's ex-bf or something....2 fatal stabs in the chest. got surrounded by more than 10 guys and u refuse to bow down, even refuse to get us, ya friends,ya back up.....
some people talked of getting the guys back,some just talk....
i decided it was all too late.....
