to my frds who are not with us today.......
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MEIFANG
hi there,its been some 5 years,yes?not that i know u well before.i remembered that i only knew u cos u were a schoolmate of my sister.and that i would see u once in awhile at my house.it must have been at least 7 years ago,eh?
let me try to tell u wat i remember of that nite.
as usual,i was working in the bar,nothing much.same 5hit,different days.somewhere around midnite,u came in and said hi.i was a little surprise to see u.i dun remember ever seeing u in the pub.so i guess my sis must have told u that i worked there.i cant remember whether it cross my mind why would u be there at such a late hour,knowing that u were married and all!!ya,being married was a big thing at that age so i guess my sister did tell me that u were.i was all of 21 and u must have been 17 or so....so it WAS a big deal!but i think i did hear my sister mention that ur husband did not treat u right.that u guys were forever fighting.(it shuda ring a bell then,but i was thick)
i think u were with 2 other gals.i din notice them much just as i din actually pay much attention to u.anyhows i give u guys ur drinks and u were sitting outside by the river,with ur 2 friends.i must admit that i did realise that u have grown into a pretty lady.
as the nite wore on...i think i did went out to u guys once,made some small talk and then forgot about u guys thru that nite.....i think i did look outside to see if u guys were still around during closing.u guys were gone.might as well....
it was 2-3 days later when i heard the news from my sister.then u jumped and ended ur life.ON THAT MORNING that i saw u.it was a few hours after i served u in fact.they found u sprawled out unceremoniously at the foot of ur flat the same morning.i m not too sure whether u were still in the same pretty black dress that u were in earlier,or that u still wore the same sweet sweet smile on ur face!they said u jumped,i really din know then,i was trying to find a slight hint of sadness or resent or weariness or anything that could have told me that u wanted to go.i found none,if they were there i didn't see it.but now i know better.
just wanna tell u that it affected me alot then,it still does now.even tho' i didn't know u that well.even tho' i haven said more than 100 sentences to u.i guess one of the main reasons why it affected me so was becos of the few hours in between...i did wonder that if we had supper together,would u have told me wats inside u?would u be here today?.....i do keep wondering..... -
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JOEY
yo there,wazzup??hows it going,dude??
hey,its been like maybe 2 years since i last saw u,no?i think u need to know that ur brother NAN misses u.i dunno where he is now,i dunno wat he's doing too.in fact i haven seen him longer than i haven seen u.but i know him like a brother,and i miss him like i miss u.so i know he must miss u hell of a lot!!!but he just plain disappear.now dun get mad at him,u know he has got many things on his mind too,many things to settle!yes he has done some wrong,so did everyone of us.so pls,if there is a time to forgive and forget,i believe there wud be no better time than now.
today i reminisce about the drunken times we had,with ppl like ES,NAN,BOBOS,DANIEL,ROSE,HAZEL and so many others that come and go....how we wud setup 2 or 7 tables outside the pub after we close,how we wud jux drink til the late afternoon .how silly we were back then.nothing that was said was ever remembered,nothing that we ever did back then was wrong.how we wud never ever back down from a fight,doesnt matter that we were always grossly out-numbered.plain courage or stupidity???i think u r in a better position to tell me.
before i go any further,lemme update u on the rest of the guys.
-ES is now working at a small pub in cuppage,he almost have the say in the whole place.now back with CINDY.so everythings good.
-BOBOS is at the best R N" B club in BQ.ya,i know.its time for him to get out from the place but he doesnt know it.its his choice really.
-DANIEL i haven seen him in a long time now,think he quit working at night,good for him.again,his choice.
-HAZEL i haven seen her the longest among the whole group so i really cannot update u on her...sorry
-ME i m a bum!!!
the day i heard the news,that someone offed u.i din know wat to think.i thot they were joking,i cannot even remember whether it was April fool's.then slowly the news travelled around the place,and i was thinking,either this is real or the person that started this joke is in a lotta trouble.NAN had already disappear then i really dunno wat was going on.....but deep inside i know it couldnt be true.it couldnt be real.then news started to come in:the situation that nite,ur gf's news,the way u went.there was anger!there was rage!there was even a witch-hunt for the guy who offed u.but then again,there were a lotta fake tears as well.but trust me i know NAN had the hardest time.ur own flesh and blood brother.hearing ur news but keep his calm.
i m not gonna remind u of wat happened that nite,i dun even know whether wat i heard was true,but i dun wanna bring it all up again.it doesnt even matter now does it???? -
rose/doris
hi,have u been alrite?2 years now aint it?i dun exactly know the reason u wanted out.there was too many questions unanswered.too much walls u built around yourself.some said it was daniel,some claims it was ur family,some others said it was work...i really dunno,nor do i wish to know.i only know u made ur decision,and were brave enuff to see it thru.ya,talking about daniel,he's doing fine the last i heard.hazel,i wont know,tho' the 4 of us has been thru good times and bad,i haven seen her in the longest of time.i know u and daniel felt bad about wat happened between me and her but it really wasnt anything to do with u guys.and look at me now,i m doing good.so forgive urself,as i have never blamed u guys,not once!
u were always the tough gal,the easy-going one,so ur departure did come as a shock.we always know u as the strong one.there was never anything that could bother u too much.but i guess u must have ur reasons.very good reasons.can't help but think of the old times that were to be had by all.....oh ya,the apartment,if u can call it an apartment...haha,has been torn down,think they gonna build better buildings there....lol.ya,it was a haven for so many of us....think carol and the rest upstairs jinxed it,eh???lol. the nite that i last saw u.i was there alone,din see hazel,but of cos daniel was there,all swollen eyes and all...oh ya,bobos was there too.u lie there so serene.so free from this world..... til i see u again